The thing was that he wasn’t in love as I thought. What I try to tell you is that I understand what means feel as the smaller, most insignificant and pathetic of the human being, and what means feel pain in parts of your body that you didn’t know them exist either. 

And doesn’t matter how many times you’ll go to the hairdresser, or to how many Gyms you’ll go, or how many Chardonay glasses you’ll take with your friends because always you’ll fall asleep asleep, every night, studying all the details or asking yourself what you did wrong or what thing you could misanderstood and how in that instant you could think that you were happy.

Sometimes you can convince yourself that he’ll see the light in your door… and after all, and even if the situation keeps going for long time, then you go to that new place and you meet new people that makes you retake the love for yourself and you start gathering together the pieces of your soul and all this years that you wasted, start to vanish.